Category Archives: Special needs children, disability awareness, author, memoir

FACING FEAR AND ADJUSTING YOUR MINDSET

I first experienced the paralyzing affect of fear in September, 1979 when my twin boys were born two months premature.  I remember seeing the look of fear in my husband’s face.  I felt nothing; as if I was outside of my body watching from afar.  I didn’t understand this weird feeling because I was young and fear became part of my life for the first time.  

Thirty-nine years later with the experience of a life time of fear, disappointment and frustrations,  I now know exactly what happened to me that day in 1979.  I created a defense mechanism that changed my personality from a shy, introverted woman to a woman who had the ability to handle the stress of situations and help my young boys.  This new personality took over my body to give me the strength and unrelenting power I needed to overcome obstacles that presented me throughout the years, which were many.

For years I felt like I was living in a fog. I didn’t understand the phenomenon that took over my mind in 1979.

In 2010 when I retired from my job and finally stepped down from the unrelenting treadmill I was on for many years, my personality changed again.  It was like the two personalities within my mind were fighting with each other to take over. It left me feeling depressed, agitated and with that I developed an anxiety disorder.

With medicine and therapy I found a way to incorporate the two personalities into one.  I took on the power from personality two and regained the gentleness, passion and caring personality I was born with. This is who I am today.

No — I am not an acclaimed psychiatrist, I am a woman who lived through challenging years creating wisdom from grueling fear and frustrations.  I like who I am now and feel comforted in my new acquired self who can create a business and share my life with people who may have experienced what I did.

If you have any question about this post or want to share your similar experiences, please contact me here on my blog site.

 

Hugs

Jude

 

 

 

#THE GOOD DOCTOR

I am obsessed with the new television show on ABC, The Good Doctor.  Yes I am sensitive to a show like this because I had a son with disabilities.  For the first time, ABC had the gumption  and initiative to actually portray an autistic man as the main character and as a doctor as well!!!… Continue Reading

#SPEECHLESS

I would like to use my voice here on my blog as an open letter to the writers, directors and actors of the new sitcom on ABC, #Speechless. TO THE POWERS TO BE AT #ABC NETWORK, I was looking forward to watching your new sitcom #”Speechless” last week. You can only imagine how thrilled I… Continue Reading

ANGER – HOW TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT- HOW TO MANAGE IT

How completely blessed I am to have found someone who has the ability to help me find my way back after many years of uncertainty. It was during our session yesterday when she helped me acknowledge, since 2006, after my son passed away, the deep anger I have so expertly hidden from the world and… Continue Reading

DEALING WITH FEAR

Fear is an obstacle that stands in the way of progress. In overcoming our fears we can move forward, stronger and wiser within ourselves. Can you relate to the above quote? Do you live with fear that cripples your potential for success? Are your fears keeping you from reaching your dreams and goals? If you… Continue Reading

A Day at the Park

What a beautiful day to go for a ride.  The window is open just a bit for me to feel the warm sunshine on my face and the window is adjusted just right enough to control the wind from hitting me directly.  I am excited to know where we are going.  Normally I don’t care… Continue Reading

Part 2 – Abanded Cerebral Palsy Victim

You, my friends, know how passionate I am about someone who is physically or mentally challenged.  I wrote a post previously about a young man abandoned in a wooded area in Philadelphia by his mother.  This young man has quadriplegic cerebral palsy, non communicative and non mobile confined to a wheelchair. I read several different… Continue Reading

A Special tribute

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